And now for the best(+) and worst(-) parts of this year:

+ talking to Dirty

- not getting tickets to see Fall Out Boy

+ Patrick smiling at me (cute)

- not finding the backdoor at the London Venue guhhhhhh

+ getting a picture with Pete (i stood right next to him and everything yay! he's more dumpy than I was expecting)

- buying the wrong train tickets - twice

+ seeing Jared and Shannon Leto eating lunch

- almost getting tripped up by Jared Leto while he was eating lunch (I shit you not)

+ going to see Shakira

- going to Spain and not speaking Spanish whilst mostly left alone

+ Gym Class Heroes concert

- Gym Class Heroes not coming back to Newcastle on their 2nd tour

+ The Guards band at the Palace doing an ABBA medly

- getting squished at the changing of the guards

+ MC Lars thinking he knew me

+ Good to go tour, The Bravery, The sounds, Plain White T's, Fightstar, Mcfly, Shayne Ward, Girls Aloud, My Chemical Romance

- not seeing Bob at MCR (I just missed him apparently *sniffles)

+ Christopher Gutierrez in the UK (my house no less yay)

- getting the wrong train to Glasgow and then nearly being stranded in Edinburgh

+ meeting Jess (plus hxc baby) at MCR and finally seeing Mindless Self Indulgence

- not being able to get tickets to see Mindless Self Indulgence

+ Turkey: Claire's wedding, Ephesus, Dalyan, Temple of Apollo, nights out

- Turkey

+/- my digital camera

+/- Buzznet, Myspace

- Facebook

+ getting 30stm tickets =]

+ Jeffree Star doing a UK tour and going to Newcastle

- Jeffree Star cancelling the Newcastle show

- not seeing Ida this year

+ Infinity on High

+ 'I'm Like A Laywer(me and you)' video

- not getting take that tickets, prince tickets, morrissey tickets, souxise tickets

+ clandestine hoodies

+/- Spiderman 3

- Harry Potter

+ friends

+ Lynz appreciating

+ shiona's pictures

+/- spray painting glasses for the goodie bags

+/- hairdye

+ FOB DOLLS

+ Rockstar

anything else that I can think of I'll add at some point hahaha

but meh

happy new year every..]

okay so not quite houston related but it's extreme enough to yell maybe cry about.
So i uploaded the footage of claire's wedding to the computer, all is good, and i edit it all nice and stuff and put it to the song and it's all lovely... 
then i stupidly delete the main video footage file and POOF! all the nice edit footage disappears, but that aint all OH NO see i cant recover the footage as it was deleted without being put into the recycle bin due to it being a large file *MUMMY WHHHYYYYY!*

so now i have to start all over again

joy

it needs to be done by about 5pm tonight [so from now thats 3 hours get in] 

help meeeee 

i should get it done its all good i can remember key points so it's all niftyness hahahaha 

wish me good things

it's true

i promised myself i'd get better at writing here, no matter how trivial, but again i broke my promise...
breaking promises i made to myself is something i do too often

besides the breaking and the mending i managed to achieve something i never thought i would i managed to grasp one of my want to do's and made it a going to do...
i am going to go and see my chemical romance this year - yes like i wanted i am doing - and it feels good
as well as being happy for that i'm happy because i know that october and novemeber are going to be the best months of the year this time round...
turkey vacation next week - one week back in the 4th circle of hell - save me from cabin fever...
i know i agreed to it but now i'm not so sure... burning awaits me again like paint catching fire blistering and burning - it's not pleasant [factor 50+ cant save us]

indecisions - what to do when i fail at passing this year at uni - hell they missed off a whole module it counts for 30 marks - i need those 30

exam resists in the form of 4 people in a room set for 20...
reith and channel 4, crystal sets and dame nellie melba = save my soul
i waffled like i do all through it 
the 5 i chose to make short notes on were
- the british broadcasting corporation
- dame nellie melba
- reith sunday
- crystal sets
- coronation of queen elizabeth II

still i dont know anything about them

questions to answer - what did reith bring to broadcasting? how have chanel 4 a public broadcasting funded channel succeeded? 

does anyone truly know? you learn but have to work it out yourself your own thoughts on the topic...
is my thinking enough? who knows?

history of broadcasting is hard...
i wonder about my radio module - i wonder if they made a mistake? who knows

1408 is creepy blair witch style... makes you think, that's the creepiest movie of all screw s-Fx - the mind is the key

the next thriller should be all pshychological
i'll start working on it soon
ideas nore than welcome

help me out this reality nightmare and into dreaming normality

take me home

i guess i'm getting just slightly pissed off at the fact that no matter how hard i try or whatever i do everyone else seems to be given the opportunity to do what i want to do...

i mean sure its great - take my sister for example if you will - she never bothered about the 'music business' and always took the piss out of me for doing a music and media management course - but now she has been asked to front the promotion side of an expanding local record label - meaning she does all the promotional stuff, tour schedules, press releases and the like - she's going to apparently hit the road with the bands as a roadie AND she fancies herself as a photographer

now i dont doubt that all the stuff is good but what gets me is the fact that she doesnt do proper photography - now i dont claim to be a genius i'm only a total amatuer BUT at least i know that when doing shoots with bands you dont use autofocus or auto-settings on the camera, which she does, you have to do it manual otherwise the focus goes to pot - and as for when she goes to their gigs - umm yeah no flash right? well she uses flash - red eye much?

but whatever i'm past caring, i'm trying myself as best i can to progress for myself rather than being on a oh my friends are in a band and know this band - that can only get you so far right?
i suppose the media industry is fickle at the best of times and is basically on a who-you-know entry basis - which sucks might i add, but surely if you push for it you can get somewhere?

am i totally hopeless? i took some pictures at shows [from the crowd] and some nature ones so if you're reading this then yay - let me know what you think about it all? 

i have more

so aside from pretty much failing the first year of my course [blah and bubblegum to that] and aside from the fact that they missed out a whole module that i did a shit load of work for everythings great...
i have to redo an assignment, and resit and exam - history of broadcasting [double blah!!!] so boring but it has to be done i suppose

anyways i'm pretty much busy busy busy this year in fact i think its the busiest year ever!

i've a nice amount of giggage [the most i've ever been in a year i think] coming up

i've got [in no particular order]

The Sounds
Plain White T's
Jeffree Star
One Night Only
McFly
Fightstar

and that's on top of the giggage i've already been to

Gym Class Heroes
Shayne Ward
Shakira
Girls Aloud
The Bravery
Wheatus
Army of Freshmen
MC Lars
Punchline


i think i have some goood gig-miles clocked up this year, there was also the trip to glasgow and london where i "met" fall out boy - it was a nice lil hello and photo with pete and smiles and hellos and waves from patrick with waves from andy and joe - no conversation [maybe next time] but i saw jared and shannon leto eating lunch in london - they're so much more grrr in real life the pictures do them no justice

so yeah

i went for a drive yesterday, just out of boredom mainly and i ended up in alnwick 24 miles or so south of berwick i could have kept going but i needed petrol - it was nice i had a nice bit of quiet time. i found the most random thing that i could ever hope to find in this country - the fishing tackle history museum - i shit you not - i'm going to go there one day just because

today i got a little lost in byker and ended up in wallsend beside swan hunters - i drove past segendum [which i think is literally translated as walls end - as in the end of hadrians wall] - its right near the river beside the main road - thats another place that should be visited too even though i could drive a few miles down the road climb through some fields and see the wall for free - its just one of those things i suppose

i've decided that i'm not going to listen to what people expect me to be like because when i think about it, its just not me at all - i want tattoos, i want piercings, i want to colour my hair whatever colour i want to, i suppose people here just dont get that at all
i need to find ways of getting myself out of here its getting too much i think, when i've finished my course i hope that i'm able to escape this city i've never liked it, london felt like home but i want to go further afield - america for sure, hopefully there will be a way for me to make it there - hopefully the band that i'm doing things for will take off over there and we'll get to work together...

maybe i should write something, take more photo's do something that makes me happy...

right now not much is